Today’s “Pay Forward” gift is - Not What It Seems! Three Eskimos children, who had never seen even a picture of an elephant, were blindfolded and led to an elephant, and asked what they were holding. The first child was handed the elephant’s tail, It’s a rope, they replied. The second child took hold of the elephant’s ear, it’s a piece of leather, was the reply. The third child tool hold of the elephant’s trunk, the child said it’s a big hose. I was much like a blindfolded child; the elephant was in our living room. Grossly lacking communication skills accounted for much of my violence, and were blocking my hunger to be loved. I succumb to frustration. I was irritable, and angry; I reacted violently or withdrew into hiding. I had a perpetual chip on my shoulder. I wanted to experience A.A.’s language of the heart. “We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.” I believed If, I did not regret the past, I was still uncaring, unloving. “Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps,” gave me a whole new meaning about regretting the past. My worse defects have been transformed into workable assets. I do regret all the harm is did, and a great deal of that harm I am unable to make a direct amends, stopped doing the harm and I am making a living amends, letting our Father show me the way, truth and light. Thy Love, The Will be done.