Today’s “Pay Forward” gift is – The Results. After my day of prayer and fasting I received, a flow of intuitive awakenings, partly as answers to my questions, and then another door opened. I need to address those insights which I know will become limited as I try to put them into words, plus this posting space will not permit it, more will be revealed later, as I live it. My willingness to “die” (surrender all of me for upgrading or transforming), caused me to better understand my Hero’s words. “O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou will.” My first question was – “Have I forgiven myself for not doing a wrong I wanted to do, but didn’t?” I couldn’t deny my need to make an amends, so I did. The most common defect uncovered was the desire to use the “drug” guilt and punishment; blocking my/our freedom. My Increased willingness to forgive, including my termites. I’ve been telling myself, in a number of ways – “It’s OK not to unconditionally Love and forgive all, even me, until perfect.” In other words, never for humans. “Don’t call me good, it is the Father within doing the works.” How can I deny the reality that we did not create ourselves, nor do we transform the food we eat into life, yet I do, too often. Our Father does know best. “I believe, help my unbelief.” Today, I really mean it when I say - Thy Love, Thy Will be done.