I Was Given The Secret “Pay Forward” #20

Today’s “Pay Forward” gift is – I Was Given The Secret. I got a Twelve Step call from a “drifter”; someone unable to stay sober, my heart went out to him. He reminded me of another “drifter” I worked with many years ago. I had tried everything I knew and everything others suggested; nothing worked. I experienced my powerlessness. I found myself asking our Father for help with all my heart mind and soul, holding nothing back. I was willing to trust in whatever I was given. What happen next changed the way I share with others. I entered his bedroom; he was holding a pistol to his head, saying he was going to “get it over with." I found myself yelling at him, “Shoot yourself,” calling him a lot of bad names; he handed me the pistol and sobered. I had never been disrespectful to a cripple before; he was a paraplegic. The next drifter that called me, I wasted no time; I let him have it; he hung up. The secret for sharing was not my meanness, but my accepting my powerlessness, and totally surrendering to the mercy and grace of our Father; agreeing to follow His guidance, no matter what. He took it from there. Now-a-days I start off knowing that I am just a channel, surrendering to our Boss, trusting His guidance. “There is no difficulty that enough love will not conquer; no disease that enough love will not heal; no door that enough love will not open…” (Emmet Fox). Thy Love, Thy Will be done.