Secrets Get In My Way, Why? “Pay Forward” # 261

I greet The Indwelling Guide.

Today’s “Pay Forward” gift is – Secrets Get In MY Way. Why?  I tell myself I am no longer grossly violent, lustful, bathed in selfishness, as I was.  Those kinds of secrets block the sun light of a spiritual way of life. It’s difficult to pray and meditate with our mind is running wild, with lustful and vengeful Thoughts and feelings, at any level.  Alcoholics Anonymous has given me, the ability to take full ownership for my defects, and to set them up to be transformed into assets.  I need to set aside my half-truths and grasp the wholeness (the Holiness), of the spiritual solution.  I must own them as a pattern and surrender them to our Father for an upgrade.  Often I’ve lacked true sincerity; saying I am willing to let go and let God take over.  What will I do without my lustful “entertainment and protection from my “enemies? “  I have been a user of, people, creatures and things all my life; however, not as gross as it has been.  The secrets, that concern me are very old, but still alive in my sub-conscious storehouse, and keep me from addressing them as needed.  I’m seeking a spiritual solution.  My personal “reality” way of handle these secrets are at best a fix.  In fact, I think I have secrets; actually, they have me.  How I justify and rationalize these secrets is exactly how I’ve trapped myself into the person I’m not living up to.  Thy Love, Thy Will be done.

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