Here I Am “Pay Forward” # 162

I Greet The Indwelling finder.

Today’s “Pay Forward” gift is – Here I am.  You can accomplish by kindness what you cannot by force” Publilius Syrus.  Where-O-where can I go to find my true Selves?  I’ve been here and there looking for the real me, to no avail.  I’ve tried all kinds of things to fulfill me, to no avail.  I have sought out others to confirm my real Self, no one seem to know.  Others seem to tell me more about themselves than about my Self.  I turned to alcohol to give me insight and it gave me more illusions.  I longed for closeness deeper than words, true intimacy; I felt would be found in sex and my disappointment increased.  I tried to learn all about love and I realize the depth of love I was seeking cannot be learned, but experienced, realized as an expression of grace.  Why couldn’t I bring love, grace and gratitude on demand?  I went off into a far country as a Prodigal Son seeking outside myself what could not be found.  When I realized my heart’s desire was hidden within me, by me, I turned Home.  The Father within me, us all, doing the works called life, which is the Love and grace I seek and now find.  Love is what we are, ready to be realized and seen with the eyes of faith.  Acts of love are not Love but expressions of a deeper true Love, which does not come by works but by grace.  Thy Love, Thy Will be done.