I Greet Indwelling Messenger.
Today’s “Pay Forward” gift – is – “Turn To Me And I Will Give You, Eyes To See” - In my meditation, I was told that by The Holy Spirit of Truth. I finely forgave my dad. I realized how many times he tried to express his love for me, and I was blind to it. Example, when I was thirteen years of age, I was on my school’s track team. I didn’t have track shoes, so I ran barefooted. Our school was in a race meet, just before I was to run my dad showed up with a pair of track shoes for me. I was really surprised but not grateful, as I remember. Our Family was very poor at the time, making his gift special. As I began my sober life, practicing A.A. spiritual principles, I recalled a number of times when my dad tried to express his love me, but it wasn't the “right” kind or enough, according to me. When I came back from the Korean War, he gave me a job with the promise of a partnership, if I worked at it. Most days I didn’t draw a sober breath, and I did not produce anything of value. Later, he paid for my detox. I have a long list of his generosity, but you get the point. When the blinders came off I could see clearly how wrong and self-centered I was. The gift of love and forgiveness is precious. Thy Love, Thy Will be done.