So What Is It? “Pay Forward” #133

I Greet The Indwelling Revealer.

Today’s “Pay Forward” gift is - So What Is It?   Three Eskimo children, who had never seen even a picture of an elephant, were blindfolded and led to an elephant, and asked what they were holding.  The first child was handed the elephant’s tail; the child said it’s a rope.  The second child took hold of the elephant’s ear; it’s a piece of leather; the child responded.  The third child took hold of the elephant’s trunk; the child said, it’s a big hose.  I was much like a blindfolded child; the elephant was in our living room.  Grossly lacking communication skills accounted for much of my violence, and were blocking my true self.  I succumb to frustration.  I was irritable, and angry; I reacted violently or withdrew.    I had a perpetual chip on my shoulder.  I wanted to experience A.A.’s language of the heart.  “We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.”  I believed If, I did not regret the past, I was still uncaring, unloving.  “Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps,” gave me a whole new meaning about regretting the past.  My worse defects have been transformed into workable assets.  I do regret all the harm done, and a great deal of that harm; I’m unable to make a direct amends.  However, I stopped doing the harm, and that’s making living amends.  I’m letting our Father show me the way, truth and light.  Thy Love, Thy Will be done.